From time to time I will post something I have read and right now I am reading from a book "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young. These are devotions from Jesus perspective and today, April 19th, this one really hit home.
"I LOVE YOU regardless of how well you are performing. Sometimes you feel uneasy, wondering if you are doing enough to be worthy of My Love. No matter how exemplary your behavior, the answer to that question will always be no. Your performance and My Love are totally different issues, which you need to sort out. I love you with an everlasting Love that flows out from eternity without limits or conditions. I have clothed you in My robe of righteousness, and this is an eternal transaction: Nothing and no one can reverse it . Therefore, your accomplishments as a Christian has no bearing on My Love for you. Even your ability to assess how well you are doing on a given day is flawed. Your limited human perspective and the condition of your body, with its mercurial variations, distort your evaluations.
Bring your performance anxiety to me, and receive in its place My unfailing Love. Try to stay conscious of My loving presence with you in all that you do, and I will direct your steps."
I struggle with how much I am liked/loved based on how good I am or what a good job I do. It is something I have struggled with all my life because I grew up with an alcoholic mother who was very critical. Daily I have to pray and release this to God and accept His unfailing Love and acceptance through Jesus Christ.